Wow. What a week it has been. Idk where to start. Well let’s start with the breaking news: I got fired. Yeah it sucks I know, but does it really? Hmmm not for sure just yet. I’m leaning towards a no. But first some background:
This week has been a long week. It started like any other. But then there was the conference call. The call that said it all in a nutshell–effective in 2 days we were going straight commission. WTF??? No more hourly plus commission, which already didn’t pay all the bills. Now you’re cutting my money even more?? That gave me the kick in the pants I needed to get my ass in gear and gets me another job. And I set out to do just that. And I got a lead for a banking job. And I restructured my resume. I was proud of myself and ready to quit my job in just a short time. And then it was Thursday. On Thursday they fired my friend Amberlish*(no it’s not the real name) and I was devastated. When I sent out the info to my friends on bbm I found out that she wasn’t the only one outed. Bulfrano was right behind her. Not my buddy, not my pal…I knew he shoulda went out with us the last time. I was just saying to him, when else are we gonna get the chance for all of us to get together like this? Looks like we won’t now. I went home that night from work highly pissed. I couldn’t believe how shiesty they were. Firing 2 great workers after you just hired a new guy and fired the guy right before him. Friday morning I woke up feeling like I was in a fight the night before. I just felt bad. Didn’t want to go to work especially after the previous day’s events. But I went bc it’s my job and I had a short shift that day. Ha ha how ironic now that I think about it. Yeah my shift was short alright, a whole 45 minutes short! Because that’s when I got canned.
Yeah I cried. I was pissed as hell. How could they do that to me??? After all that I’ve sacrificed of myself. After all that I’ve given up. All the arguments with my husband. All the times I wanted to quit. All the times that the money I made didn’t pay the bills. All the missed time with my children. It took me a minute to let it sink in. Friday was hard for me. Not because I was sad about losing my job. I was angry. Angry at how it was done. I even asked him, why didn’t you do this yesterday when you fired 2 other people from my store? He couldn’t get around to it was his response. I call bullshit! But it is what it is right? Can’t cry over spilt milk, all I can do is wipe it up and keep it moving. I think I woulda been more sad if they hadn’t already fired 2 of my friends. That’s the only reason to be sad, is not seeing your friends anymore. And knowing that they got shitted on too. And then I feel bad for my friends that are still working there. Because they have to cover shifts and still be stuck in the same rat race. At least on the bright side I was freed.
So where to now? What’s to become of me? Well I tell you what, this is just another test that will make us stronger. Yeah, we’ll have to move and downsize and it will suck in the short run. But I’ll tell you what, I started this blog last weekend and it’s now Wednesday, and I’ve enjoyed spending time with my children. I had Jordan all weekend while my mom had Brianna and I just loved it. I’ve enjoyed picking the kids up and fixing dinner. I’ve enjoyed being mommy and wifey. And I’m glad that I have the opportunity to look for a job and interview when they need me to and not when my schedule allows. I can start when they need me to, not after giving notice. And in practical ways this works out bc daycare is closed the last week of the month and now I’m available to watch them. Either way we’ll be okay. And it’ll just be another story that we’ll laugh and joke about in the future.
So was it good news or bad news? Ummm I’d say a little bit of both. On one hand it sucks, for financial reasons. It just makes our financial hole even bigger. I would’ve liked to have left on my own terms. But it’s good news too. The family time is priceless and I hate that I’ve missed so much of my baby’s life by working at that job. I had to do the same with Brianna and I really wanted to be there with my second child, but unfortunately I had a bad schedule for moms. So I’m really happy for being with my children. Now it just gives me that kick in the pants to go find a job that gives me the schedule I need. I would settle for less money with a better schedule any day if it means a better family life.