Honestly, I’m pretty tired of being at home. I mean I love the freedom of getting a workout in everyday. And cooking dinner and having more time with the kids. But being a stay at home mom with no money is no fun. I used to try to get my time in with the kids on the weekends by running errands with them in the mornings before I had to go to work. But without a job, there isn’t any money to go to any store. And I don’t like to window shop! So on the one hand I’m happy for being home and having the ability to cook dinner and be my role of wife and mommy. But on the other, I’m getting stir crazy. So aside from looking for a job daily I’m also being a housewife. Which is not in my nature. Because I hate to clean. I have to be in the mood to clean. (usually only when there’s a full moon) But I’m using this opportunity to really hone in on my domestic skills. I’m trying to tackle at least a task a day. Whether it’s laundry, cleaning the bathrooms or bedrooms or kitchen. I’m trying to do something noticeable daily. And plus I gotta start packing soon bc we’ll be downsizing.
I believe everything happens for a reason. Lord knows we don’t know why at the time, but I do believe that. And I think, yeah it sucks to lose a job at anytime. But now was actually a good time for me to be home. Because daycare is closed the last week of this month (yeah my daycare takes vacation as if people don’t work, but it has really low rates so what ya gonna do?) now I’m able to keep the kids the whole week and not have to make my husband take off work or get our parents to take off work. So that works out. I just have to have a job in August bc I can’t afford (in so many senses of the word) to not work. And I’m willing to do so much when it comes to a job. Because I have to put food on my table and keep shelter over our heads. And kids don’t stop growing and if Brianna gets into pre-k I’ll have to buy her school uniforms. And Jordan sure isn’t gonna stop eating anytime soon (love my big boy!) so money is definitely needed. I just know that this is a blessing in disguise. And I will accept it as such. For me right now my goal is to find a job that will take care of my needs. And my priorities are decent pay and a decent schedule. Give me that and I’m a happy camper.