I personally believe that in order to lose weight for real, everything needs to be lined up. Like all the ducks have to be in a row. What I mean by that is, I can try to lose weight over and over but until everything is set up for my success, it’s just not gonna work. This is speaking for me, I think this is the case with most of us, but I can only speak for myself. For example, I’ve tried to get back into working out since having Jordan, but your body will reject you if you’re not getting adequate sleep. I was stuck at the same weight, or within the same range of 10lbs for months and I’m just now starting to get results. And I believe that it’s because everything is aligned.
A couple of weeks ago it hit me that 30 is right around the corner. I’ll be 27 in a month. And I’m not where I want to be in life. I’m very far from it. And I realized that nobody is going to change my life but me. Regardless of my circumstances, I hold the key to unlock the door to my happiness and personal satisfaction. Going thru issues in my marriage and with trying to find a job and my disgust with my body, all helped me to make the decision to make a real change. Otherwise I would be 37 years old feeling the exact same way. So I’m 2 weeks into my changes. The first thing I’m tackling is my weight. I think a lot of it comes to or centers around that. It has a lot to do with my lack of self-confidence and I guess why I let myself go really. I started a group on facebook called Biggest Loser Tuesdays. I started it because I wanted to be held accountable and I wanted to motivate my friends also. We motivate each other. And I also started it because I didn’t want to watch another season of The Biggest Loser saying that by the end of the season I would lose weight only to be watching the finale looking the exact same. It hasn’t been easy, but I’ve been sticking to it and feeling good. And finally have seen changes on the scale and I’ve lost a few inches here and there. It takes determination and dedication. And I have both. I also have sleep which really helps.
I wanted to go ahead and get my ass in gear now because I want to have lost all of my weight by next summer. Because along with this aspect of my life makeover is getting started in my career and not just a job, but making really good money. And with that really good money, aside from getting out of debt, saving for a house, and things like that; but I also want to have great memories with my family. I want to go the beach and pool and look good and feel good in my bathing suit. And I want to wear a bikini damnit! lol I want to go out to nice places with my husband and wear cute clothes. I want him to be proud to show me off. So when everyone else is gorging on food this holiday season, I’ll be enjoying my food knowing that I’m losing weight. And when everyone is making the same old New Year’s resolution, I’ll be halfway to my goal. The winter time is the best time in my opinion to lose weight. For me anyway, because I workout at home. And I’m looking forward to stepping out this spring with a new look!
This is just one aspect of my life makeover. For me it’s the first step because it’s the part that I’ve had the biggest struggle with since having children. I’ve been writing in my journal which helps me with more personal things. But I wanted to get back to blogging regarding my weight. It’s cathartic for me and may help whoever reads it. I’m taking control back over my life. Because I’m the only one who can make me better.