So is my life that seems like if I make advances, there is something always that will set me back. I mean my goodness! I’m not gonna go into a whole bunch of details, but my gosh, when can Aria just catch a damn break already??? The good news is that I start my new J-O-B tomorrow!!! Hooray for that!!! The bad news is that with whatever money that is my first check I have to get my insurance re-instated and get my tags straight on my car. Friday afternoon, I got pulled the police, which just on it’s own pisses me off! This city has like a cop for every person here, it’s freakin ridiculous!! But yet people are getting shot up and robbed all the time. I digress, that’s not the point of my blog. Even tho, my sister-in-laws friend just got shot and killed in the wee hours of this morning, getting caught up in crossfire in the wrong neighborhood–where were the cops then??? And I see people running red lights left and right, with cops at the intersection and they don’t get pulled. But nooooo, they pull me just because they decide to run my tags. It’s not the cops fault. I know that. It’s my fault for being unemployed and letting my insurance lapse. I’m sorry, I can’t pay when I don’t have to pay. Yeah it’s wrong, but it is what it is. But dang, I start my job tomorrow and was gonna get all that squared away. Now on top of that, I have to pay for a ticket! And for whatever reason, my tags don’t match up to my car. I don’t know what that’s about, because I’ve never switched my tags on my car. I just have a lot of things to get squared away with my car and insurance. And it pisses me off because, I DON’T HAVE MONEY FOR ALL OF THIS!!!! I mean seriously, give me a break!!! Hell, I was just happy to get back to working so that I can get back on track with my bills. With my car payment, rent, daycare, insurance…all of the basics, you know cable, electrics, phone. Just wanted to get us back on track so that my husband isn’t burdened with it all. And now it’s gonna take that much longer because of this unexpected expense. It just irks me, that this is the way my life is. Can’t win for losing, you know?
But nevertheless, I continue to move forward. That’s all I can do. I continue to stay in prayer. Continue to pray for favor and financial blessings and financial increase. Maybe I can hit $1000 or something in the lottery. Just something to help us out, you know? I know one thing that I will be doing with my paychecks, and that’s paying my tithes. I know that when I give God what he’s required, that he will make sure that the rest of my money will provide for my needs. So even tho I’m bummed about my circumstances, I know that it will all work out. And hopefully I’ll gain some wisdom in all of this. Learn something from it. I’ll get it all squared away. I just pray for favor and mercy.