I’m at the place in my life where I have come to realize that if I want something changed, I have to be the one to change it. And i’m not talking about fitness and working out. I’m talking about real life, grown up styles. Like I’m not going to have that house, that lifestyle if I don’t do things to make it happen. I’ve been thinking lately about what I want out of life. It’s not so much the material things, it’s the experiences I want to have. Experiences that cost money…and a lot of it. I want a nice house that we can have wonderful memories in. Unfortunately, whereas I used to ride by houses and daydream and envision my life in my own beautiful home, now it just depresses me, because I realize that my dream of owning a home is a dream that will take several years to materialize. But it’s more than just the house, the cars, the clothes…I have two beautiful, bright children, and I want to be able to provide anything and everything they could want and need. Not in a spoiling way. But Brianna will be going to kindergarten this fall…and there will be different fieldtrips and extracurricular activities that she’ll want to partake in as she goes thru school, and I don’t ever want to have to answer her with “you can’t go on that trip, because I don’t have the money.” If she wants to take dance class, or if she’s a cheerleader and she needs to buy her uniform, I want to have the means to provide for that. I have a son who I truly know and believe has an athletic gift (you have no idea, this 18 month old has an arm of a QB) and to not be able to finance that gift…it would break me. So my wheels in my brain have been doing a lot of turning the past few days (gets a little squeaky at times! haha) and I’m trying to think of ways to make sure that we are not only financially sound, but that we have all that we need and a few wants too. I just know that I can’t just wish and hope and pray. I have to make real decisions, make real moves. I know that it’ll take a lot of saving, some sacrifice for now, but I’m willing to do what it takes now to ensure a better future for us. Making big changes…yep, that’s where I’m at right now…or at least having big thoughts, gonna put it down on paper…write the vision and making it plain. <— that’s Bible right there!