Lord, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change,
the courage to change the things I can
and the wisdom to know the difference
You know, this has been in my spirit for a few days. Namely this phrase: the courage to change the things I can.
That’s a very powerful word. The definition of courage: (1) the ability to do something that frightens one. (2) strength in the face of pain or grief. A few synonyms are bravery, nerve, and valor.
The Serenity Prayer in it’s own right is a very powerful prayer. That’s why we were given that as a prayer to use as a guide. But never once in my 30 years of life did the courage aspect stand out to me. Until now. I used to have a fear of failure growing up, school, work, relationships…you name it I was afraid of not succeeding. I finally got over that fear of failure when I realized that the most successful people fail. It’s a part of life and it makes the succeeding even sweeter because of all of the ups and downs that it took to get to that point.
Now I am realizing that I have to have the courage, the bravery, the balls to make the changes I want to see in my life. I don’t think I’ve been expecting things to be given to me, never had the silver spoon before, no need in expecting it to be there now…but I admit that I expected to be farther along in life than where I currently am.
I’m also realizing that everything I’ve spoken into existence that I’ve wanted has come to pass. I realize that God is an on time God. His timing is perfect. I also realize that I can’t buck against what I’ve previously put out there. So now it’s time for me to stop and listen. My prayer is for direction, for a plan, for God to order my steps to make my dreams a reality.
After having this in my spirit for a few days last week…I was with my Mom and daughter for Mother’s Day we had a girl’s day on Saturday, talking it out with my Mom and just being in the city made it feel more possible. It breathed new life into me. Then on Sunday Pastor Joel Osteen just further confirmed it for me with his message. I believe it was called “He Has a Plan for You.” But when I say it was on point, it was on point. I definitely received that message.
**Side Bar: as usual this post start over a week ago, now let’s continue**
It’s funny how things work out sometimes. Like I was stating above, that’s been in my spirit, it hasn’t left. But on my way to work this morning, something else came to my spirit. Now due to the nature of social media these days, I can’t put it all out there. I don’t get income from blogging so I work and won’t really go into specifics since my current or any future employer may stumble upon this blog and be like, woah what is she talking about here? Got me?
Several years ago I was put to the test. I failed that test. And although everything happens for a reason, we have our road blocks in life to learn and grow from, I feel that I would be in a different place now, had I not failed that test then. The great thing about God is that He gives you so many chances to get it right. You didn’t pass it the first time, try try again, because He’s going to keep testing until you pass. And I felt it in my spirit as I was praying as I always do, on my way in to work, that this test is coming up again. And this time, I will pass.
You see, it goes back to the top of the post: the courage to change the things I can.
I didn’t have that courage several years back when I was faced with that test. I’m building up that courage now, each and every day. I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired and it’s time for a change. Change is good but it’s also scary, and it takes the courage inside of you to stand up to fear and say I’m doing this and you can’t stop me. Long story short (because this is becoming a tad lengthy) I have enough sense to be able to tell that I’m being tested again. It’s time to come out of my comfort zone (or lack thereof) shake off the complacency and move forward with my life. So it’s not going to go down the road I expected…that’s fine. I knew that coming into this situation, now it’s time to do what’s best for me. Me, myself and I (and my hubby and kids lol).
Man wouldn’t it be nice to know as you were a teenager that being an adult isn’t all that it’s cracked up to be? That way you could truly enjoy being a kid instead of trying to rush to grow up…sighs…lesson learned.