Lately I’ve been in this space…it’s not happy it’s not sad, it’s just…stuck.
I feel like I come here so often I should be the mayor of stuck on foursquare.
But I guess that’s what being an adult is all about, and being stuck sucks, but the goal is not to stay stuck.
I have been wrestling with the decision to move or to move. Yeah you read that right. To move within my current city or to venture out and move to the big city. I can’t take it anymore. Rewind to last year or even the year before and you will see that I’ve wanted out of our current place for years now. I’m fed up.
So at this point it’s a matter of logistics. On the one hand I’m debating to see if I get another position by the summer that will allow me to make the big move. But realistically I’m thinking, I need and want out now. I don’t want to wait for the “possibility” ya know…and still be sitting in this same old, inefficient house that as each day goes by really is not working for our family. I’m tired of trying to make it work when it just doesn’t.
On the other hand I say to myself that why not shoot for the stars and make the big move?
You see how that was just one line? lol I think it’s because in reality I’ve already made my decision.
I don’t think I’m asking too much when it really comes down to it. I want to make more money. Live in a larger home that fits the needs of my family and provide the adequate child care/preschool for my babies. Not asking too much at all.