I swear it seems like for every high point I have a low point. I get so tired of being on this rollercoaster it’s ridiculous. Yesterday I went thru so many emotional highs and lows and I was really just about to give up. Not on life. Just give up on some goals and dreams. I’m writing this post to encourage myself and others. You know, life will put up road blocks and setbacks, detours, everything. And it’s ok to have a breakdown. I sure did yesterday.
Idk about you, but it seems like in our life, anytime money is coming to us, that’s when things start messing up. It’s Murphy’s Law. Something is bound to come up. It’s inevitable. So that’s exactly what occurred yesterday. And I broke down. I just had had all that I could take. So I try to stay positive and look on the bright side and say to myself: well at least I have the money to handle any issue coming up. But I won’t lie, there’s a ton of other negative thoughts too, like: I can’t buy a house, I can’t even pay regular bills how am I gonna buy a house, why can’t I just be ok? why do I have to struggle? why can’t things come easy? why why why??
We all have these moments. The problem is where you get stuck in the negative. And I’m working very hard to not allow that. I have to stay positive. Stay focused on my goal. I am going to acheive my goals. I am going to buy a house. I am going to make it work. When I get a low moment I refocus myself. Put my eyes on the prize. And I have to remember that I do it for them. Those babies of mine. I do it for them. I will go without before they will.
So yesterday I had my meltdown and thanks to my great friend, she was able to help me see the perspecitve. She helped me breathe through it and woosah it out. Because we all have weak moments. I’m her strength when she’s weak and vice versa. I needed that more than anything yesterday. It’s so easy to just wanna give up on it all. But I’m not going to do that. I’m gonna breathe and keep it moving step by step day by day. That’s all I can do right? Be thankful for the breathe in my body. It’s usually during times like this when I turn to my favorite movie– Gone With The Wind. I haven’twatched it in a while, but everytime I need a little push, I watch that. Because it gives me strength. And as God as my witness, I will do what I have to do, but I will not go hungry again! {that’s my paraphrasing lol} I think I will be watching this weekend for sure!
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